Wednesday, 12 September 2012

Day 117: Self sabotaging Self Forgiveness


Self forgiveness statements are about allowing self to take personal self responsibility for the patterns within and as oneself where self allows self to see the pattern, take responsibility for the patterns and realise and understand how this pattern functions, thus allowing self to take back one’s own personal power within and as the pattern that self is looking at.

When one uses Self forgiveness statements for justifications, blame, resentment, judgment, manipulation, etc self is fucking with oneself in fucking with the self forgiveness statements, thus sabotaging the tool of self forgiveness within and as oneself.

So – Do not be misguided by the idea that ‘I am a good person, because I am applying self forgiveness statements’ as this is a sure trap that one sets for oneself in believing that because one is ‘doing / writing’ self forgiveness statements that self is absconded from the patterns that self had manifested as creations within and as oneself.

Using the words ‘accepted and allowed’
Writing out a self forgiveness statement follows a specific format wherein self starts the statement with the words: ‘I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to ….’ These words are chosen specifically in terms of what they stand for, represent as well as the direction that they are leading self into.

For instance the word ‘accepted’ is allowing self to look at and take responsibility for that which self has accepted either directly or indirectly through how self participated or not participated within the pattern.

The word ‘allowed’ is referring to how self allowed the pattern to unfold, by self either not directing the point or just ‘going with the flow’ of the event so as to not upset the apple cart.
The words are placed within this order as self first accepts an event to occur before self allows the event / pattern to unfold, thus when looking at patterns within and as oneself; self accepts the pattern whether by default or blatant acceptance, and thereafter self allows the pattern to unfold into and as the physical.

Identifying the pattern
So – Once self has started with the Self forgiveness statement where self wrote: “I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to…” our next part of the format of writing out this statement is to write in the ‘pattern’ that self is looking at.
This is the part where self can sabotage oneself within the self forgiveness statement as the habit is to walk right back into the pattern that self is facing. Here is an example of a Self forgiveness statement where self is still blaming the other person and also justifying to self why self had a right to be nasty.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to be so nasty to the other person because they were a bitch to me when they did not have to be so sharp in their words.
This statement is a self sabotage statement as self has not taken self responsibility for and as the event that took place – instead self is using blame and self justification by means of a self righteous tool (self forgiveness statements) to insinuate that self is right and the other person is wrong, and self is better than the other person because self is doing self forgiveness statements.
When in doubt about the self forgiveness statement that self had written – Ask oneself – What did I take responsibility for within this statement. If the answer is unclear or cloudy, it is best to have a look at the self forgiveness statement again and rewrite it until self is able to answer this question with clarity and certainty within and as oneself.

Here is an example of the same scenario above – But where the person has take self responsibility for and the event / pattern:

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to become the nasty character within and as myself when the other person spoke to me in a sharp way and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create a response pattern within and as myself as to when another person speaks to me in a sharp way, I will react in a nasty way and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that my participation within and as the nasty character is how I perpetuate this pattern where I feel inferior within and as myself in relation to the other person and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that it is only through my participation that this pattern will perpetuate as I am allowing myself to create and recreate the experience within and as myself.

To be continued in the next blog…

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