This is a continuation to the blogs:
Day 84: Manipulation Character
Day 85: Manipulation Character Self Forgiveness Statements
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to see certain types of manipulation as ‘innocent’ as I believe within and as myself that no-one gets hurt, but I still get that which I want to experience and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that using what I have termed as ‘innocent’ manipulation is still a way within which I am able to hide myself to not face the situation that I am facing directly, but to instead use information and knowledge as a means to still get that which I want and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that when I use manipulation, that I had not yet in fact stood in clarity within and as myself to direct the situation effectively, which implies that I had not yet accepted and allowed myself to take my power of self direction to open up the point, let go of my desire to see the point in its totality and then to give myself acceptance to direct the point effectively, without the desire within and as myself directing me.
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not want to admit to myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create larger types of manipulation as I have classified the larger types of manipulation where I am plotting as evil and to through this I would hide this type manipulation from myself through the justifications as reasons that I had accepted and allowed myself to place as barriers before this type of manipulation so as to not allow myself to see that I had used plotting as a means of manipulating a situation so that I am able to come out on top and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to believe the feelings of inadequacy within and as myself and to through this I would manipulate myself to not see, realise and understand that my actions and my words are filled with manipulation so as to change the context of the situation so that I do not have to feel inadequate within and as myself.
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to within my marriage create an expectation of my partner where I would expect my partner to fulfil certain desires within and as myself and when my partner does not fulfil these desires I would accept and allow myself to manipulate my partner into feeling guilty as I know within and as myself that according to how I grew up, that these expectations are also ingrained into my partner and as such I can use this knowledge and information to manipulate my partner as my partner also have these expectations of himself and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that these expectations that I was programmed with becomes desires within and as myself that I seek to fulfil as experiences within and as the physical, which I then manipulate my partner to give to me, and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that trying to manipulate my partner to give me these experiences implies that I am powerless to give these experiences to myself, thus I now see, realise and understand that when I am manipulating my partner, I am in fact tacitly accepting and allowing myself to believe that I am powerless to affect changes in my life to create the experiences that I would like or prefer to experience.
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate within the courting game where I would manipulate what my partner or potential partner sees about me as I would like my partner or potential partner to only see the best that I have to offer, thus accepting and allowing myself to only show that which I believe my partner / potential partner would like to see, not seeing, realising or understand that I am in fact manipulating the situation to get that which I desire to experience which is to have this partner like me / want me, and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have created a belief within and as myself that this partner / potential partner will not like me for who I am and thus I have to manipulate the situation to a point where I will manifest the experience that I desire which is to have this partner / potential partner like me, and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create a belief about myself that I am an unlikeable person which justifies my actions of manipulating another to see me in the light of that which I would like to be seen as.
I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create the ‘nasty character’ within and as myself where when my manipulation tactics do not succeed in fulfilling the desires that I had created within and as myself I will send out the nasty character to attack the other person as a means of getting that which I desire to be fulfilled and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that when I send out the nasty character within and as myself that I am accepting and allowing myself to have the experience that I was defeated because I did not get that which I desired, and to through this I forgive myself that I did not accept and allow myself to see, realise and understand that the manipulation character is a dishonest character which hides his true intentions and expects to have his desires fulfilled irrespective of what is here within and as the physical and irrespective of what is best for all within a given situation and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that the manipulation character is a coward as it hides behind knowledge and information so that its true intentions are not seen on the cuff, but is hidden in the darkness of the secret mind where it can plot and scheme to have its desires fulfilled.
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