Day 82: Justifications Character Self Forgiveness Statements

This is a continuation to:

Day 81: Justifications Character

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the justification character as I now see, realise and understand that stepping into the justification character is how I justify my actions, not accepting and allowing myself to take responsibility for my actions or take responsibility for what I see within and as my environment and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to hide behind the justification as all the reasons why I am right and why I do not have to take responsibility for what is here.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create beliefs within and as myself and to through this, use justifications to keep the belief that I had created within and as myself as real to myself, and through this I forgive myself that I never accepted and allowed myself to look self honestly at the beliefs that I had created within and as myself as I accepted and allowed myself to believe in the justification that I had given to myself. I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself not to see, realise and understand that I am only holding onto the beliefs that I had created within and as myself, because the justification that I had built around this belief keeps the belief bound in a safe fort where no-one is able to attack my beliefs because my defence system as the justifications that I have as reasons for my belief is protecting my belief not to be destroyed by others.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create ideas within and as myself that is based within self-interest where I would pursue these interests and through my tunnel vision of pursuing these interests I would not consider what is here and I would not consider what is best for all, and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to within my defence (when questioned by others) use all the justifications that I can find to not seem that I had stepped into a tunnel vision and only pursued my own self-interest and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to not see, realise and understand that within the act of me justifying my actions, I have already accepted and allowed myself to accept that I am guilty of only pursuing my self-interested actions as I have the desire and need within and as myself to justify my actions / to give reasons for my actions as I already know within and as myself that I did not take responsibility within and as the moment when I was building the idea within and as myself, as I now see, realise and understand that when I was building this idea within and as myself, I was only considering myself and the gratification that this idea within the manifestation of the physical would give me.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to create ideas within and as my mind of what it is that I would like to experience and thus create expectations of those around me to give to me these ideas that I had created within and as myself and when others do not give me what it is that I believe I deserve to experience I allow myself to blame them for not giving me what it is that I would like to experience, and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to justify my reasons why I am allowed to blame others for not giving to me what it is that I believe I deserve to experience and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to really believe that my reasons are justified because I perceive it within and as myself that others are getting what I believe I want to experience, and through this I then tell myself that I also deserve to experience these experiences which I then use as part of my justification of why I am allowed to blame others for not giving to me what it is that I would like to experience.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to become the opinion character within and as myself and through this I would step into the justification character that would support the opinion characters’ opinions as all the reasons why the opinion characters’ opinion has more value / is more important to listen to, and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that in order for me to carry opinions I have to be able to justify why my opinions carry more weight, thus I keep on carrying the weight of the opinions and the justification in order for my opinions to have more weight.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have judgements about other people / myself and to through using justifications grant me the reasons as to why I am allowed to judge others / myself, and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that accepting and allowing myself to judge others I have to also accept and allow myself to carry the weight of the reasons as to why I am judging them and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that to hold judgments against others / myself is an act of self sabotage as I am the one that has to do the heavy lifting in carry this extra load of baggage with me as I move through life and through this I now see, realise and understand that to let go of judgments I have to also let go of the reasons as the justifications that I am holding onto, as these reasons is holding the judgement that I am carrying in place.

I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that the justification character is a side-kick character that stands in the side lines supporting the opinion character, the blame character, the belief character and the judgment character as it is rooting for one of these character to win in the winning and losing game that we have called life.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate within and as the justifications character where I would manipulate information to suite me within and as my self-interest, where I would take the information that is before me change it, mould it, manipulate it so that it seems that I am right within and as that which I am participating within and as and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that to participate within and as the justifications character, I had already accepted within and as myself that what I was participating within and as was and is not good for all and thus through my guilt I would use the justifications character to hide the guilt that I have within and as myself to make me seem right in the eyes of others.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to have the desire within and as myself to be seen as ‘right’ by others, instead of accepting and allowing myself to look for myself what is best for all within and as a situation and to thus through this I would hide behind the justifications character where I am seeking the support of others to tell me that what I did was / how I see a situation / what I believe in / how I judge others, is true and right, and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that to hide behind the justification character is how I do not stand up for myself / how I am not taking responsibility for myself and my action / how I am abdicating responsibility to what is here as life.