Day 76: Opinion character Self Forgiveness Statements

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Day 75: Opinion character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to step into the opinion character within and as myself when I am faced with a scenario where I have knowledge/information to add to the current scenario, not seeing, realising or understanding that I am regurgitating information that I have associated to the current moment, seeking validation for the knowledge/information that I am presenting and seeking self-worth through getting others to accept the knowledge/information that I am presenting and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise or understand that giving opinions is not being self-directive within and as a moment as all I am doing is regurgitating knowledge/information without checking the knowledge/information for and as myself and seeing what the self-directive application within and as myself for the moment is.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to build an opinion character within and as myself through the knowledge/information that I had stored within and as myself and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to build my self-worth on how much validation my opinion character receives from others and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that having the requirement to have ones opinions validated means that self has not looked at the scenario within and as self, and self is thus just throwing knowledge/information ‘out there’ hoping that someone will validated it and thus validate self. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to state my opinion with absolute conviction hoping that ‘someone’ will validate it, as I feel insecure within and as myself with the opinions that I am making, although representing to the world that I am confident and secure with the opinions that I have, and through this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to see, realise and understand that the insecurity within and as myself comes from hoping that I am right, instead of practically walking through the knowledge/information within and as myself and checking the knowledge/information for myself seeing what is valid and what is practical.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to attach my self-worth to how much other people agree with or validate the opinions I have, and through this I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to build my self-worth on the opinions that I have and whether they are validated or not, not seeing, realising and understanding that self-worth is not built on the knowledge/information that I carry or the knowledge/information that I am able to regurgitate within and as a moment.

I forgive myself that I had NOT accepted and allowed myself to give value to myself as a living, breathing being within and as myself and within that, NOT allowing myself to be here within and as breath to be able to look at scenarios and allowing myself to walk the time line of manifestation in order to see for myself what it is that I am looking at, but instead to rely on the knowledge/information that I had gathered, believing that this knowledge/information has more value than who I am here as breath, but simultaneously seeking others to tell me whether this knowledge/information that I am carrying has value as I am uncertain within and as myself that the knowledge/information that I am carrying has any value, thus placing myself within a polarity of believing that I have value because of the knowledge and information that I am carrying versus ‘knowing’ within and as myself that I do not have value because I had not yet given it to myself. I now see, realise and understand that I can only have value, one and equal as life, if I accept and allow myself to give value to myself as life and allowing myself to stand as the expression of life.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to seek for validation in the form of being right within and as the opinions as knowledge and information that I am carrying, and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that the opinion character within and as myself is continuously playing a winning / losing game where the opinion character within and as myself is seeking to be right. I forgive myself that I did not see, realise and understand that the opinion character is just a character within and as myself that seeks energy through validation and when the opinion character does not get his energy fix of being right the opinion character within and as myself will change the topic so as to not wallow in the mistakes that the opinion character had made, thus minimising the losses of losing energy by losing the opinion game that was played with another opponent.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself not to see, realise and understand that using the words “I heard that….” or “What I believe I saw was…” are words used by the opinion character where the evolved opinion character is playing down his opinion so as to not find himself in the losing seat when playing the opinion game with another character, and through this I forgive myself that I did not see, realise or understand that using these words is how my opinion character has learnt to evolve into a character that mostly finds himself in the winning seat, thus further justifying to self how right and clever the opinion character within and as self is.